A Grain of Sand

"I will multiply you as the stars in heaven and as the sand upon the shore." - Genesis 22:17

"I can see the master's hand in every leaf that trembles, in every grain of sand." - Dylan, Every Grain of Sand (on Shot of Love)

Sunday, October 30, 2011

Return, Again

Another long delay since my last post. Apologies - I'm not even sure if anyone is reading at this point. In the world of blogging, silence indeed equals death. If you are not writing, you don't exist. Sometimes silence speaks volumes. In this case, the absence of blog posts tells of the madness of life with three beautiful children. I love writing. I love reading. I discover myself through the study of Torah and self reflection. There has been no time for this. What is the balance between being a good father and husband and being a non-person? If we become merely a good person in relation to others, if we exist solely for others, we can't really become and grow. So, how to take control of our spiritual lives when the moral and familial demands are overwhelming? In other words, im ein ani li mi li u'kshani b'atzmi mah ani v'im lo achshav ematai? If I am not for myself, who will be for me? When I am only for myself what am I? And if not now when?


  1. Of course people are reading.
    I suppose from Buber's standpoint, it isn't a matter of having time for yourself, but having time for an I thou relationship with hashem. Or, as I always seem to get back to multiple personalities (did we all agree with that?) an I thou relationship with yourself. For surely seeing someone in fervent prayer is similar to seeing one who seems to be talking to themself or, in the case of Hannah, drunk.

    So I guess the conclusion is that if you don't find that you have enough time for yourself and powerful reflection, you can at least get drunk now and then.