Return, Again

Another long delay since my last post. Apologies - I'm not even sure if anyone is reading at this point. In the world of blogging, silence indeed equals death. If you are not writing, you don't exist. Sometimes silence speaks volumes. In this case, the absence of blog posts tells of the madness of life with three beautiful children. I love writing. I love reading. I discover myself through the study of Torah and self reflection. There has been no time for this. What is the balance between being a good father and husband and being a non-person? If we become merely a good person in relation to others, if we exist solely for others, we can't really become and grow. So, how to take control of our spiritual lives when the moral and familial demands are overwhelming? In other words, im ein ani li mi li u'kshani b'atzmi mah ani v'im lo achshav ematai? If I am not for myself, who will be for me? When I am only for myself what am I? And if not now when?